I'm writing this with my phone, so prepare for typos and such. I am currently sitting on the train on my way back to my parents. I got my speakers to work again, so I will try to continue my research. I had planned to have a video call with Michael, but if everything works out I might have a chance at hanging out with him the next few days. I did think of something though. The footage from the last video seems
To be from when the two of us went on a small trip around the area last winter. I think I am starting to remember now. Also, I called a doctor I know personally about the loss of time, and he said he
Might meet up
With me one time the next few months, but he works for a university and is quite busy. And also, I have a plan. There is a ruin along a highway near where I live, it is difficult to get there on foot, but I have a vague feeling I might have been there at some
Point, I keep seeing these broken brick walls in my dreams. I guess I suppressed the memory, but why. Also, my cold seems to be gone, but the nightmares are getting worse. I barely get any sleep.
Stay tuned :)
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Friday, August 23, 2013
what the...
Somehow someone managed to acess my youtube account. Great, if the person who did it is reading this, just so you know, this password is a little harder. Also, the footage in the video was possibly some stuff that I filmed. I do not know how said person accessed the files, but my guesss is that they have access to my old journal and bag, which means that they have my bag. From the content of the video, I was not able to get any clues. However, the good news is that I will have a short conversation with my friend, Michael tomorrow, hopefully he will let me put it up on youtube.
Strangely, I am no longer sick, but my bad dreams have been continuously recurring, and I have a feeling that they are getting worse or clearer maybe. I guess if you dream the same thing over and over you remember more. I keep flying through this sea of fire. But now I see symbols, like mathematical symbols and all kinds of logos, like you stuck your head into the Internet itself I guess. I should stop eating spicy food before I go to bed I guess. Oh, and also, every now and then there is some brief static. It looks like a girl. But I cannot recognize her. Also, when, in my dream, I go lower, I sometimes see a beach, and a Gray, monochrome city, the sky then looks like a TV tuned to a dead channel or something, wispy grays mixing with the smog of whatever city it is. I am to far away to see any landmarks. I see some people walking on the beach, a man and a woman I think, but I can't make out any specific features. He does seem to have some form of scar tissue or a gigantic piercing near his ear, right behind it, and is always carrying a keyboard or one these fancy new tablets. That is usually where I wake up.
My personal guess is that I spend several hours to many reading crappy novels and that I eat the wrong food before going to bed, but for these things to recur so often, I just don't know...
Anyway, I am still working on recovering some more footage, I also got around for a quick trip to the house from the intro video. I did not dare to go inside though, I felt as if someone was watching me, the powerline was constantly humming, the wind sounded like this choir of whispers, like in a cheesy betond belief dream sequence, and I could have sworn that I saw somethong move in the bushes. That place just has this terryfying atmospehre, even if you bring a friend, you would not really know what to do.
Anyway, stay tuned for more, I could keep on going, but I got stuff to do :)
Strangely, I am no longer sick, but my bad dreams have been continuously recurring, and I have a feeling that they are getting worse or clearer maybe. I guess if you dream the same thing over and over you remember more. I keep flying through this sea of fire. But now I see symbols, like mathematical symbols and all kinds of logos, like you stuck your head into the Internet itself I guess. I should stop eating spicy food before I go to bed I guess. Oh, and also, every now and then there is some brief static. It looks like a girl. But I cannot recognize her. Also, when, in my dream, I go lower, I sometimes see a beach, and a Gray, monochrome city, the sky then looks like a TV tuned to a dead channel or something, wispy grays mixing with the smog of whatever city it is. I am to far away to see any landmarks. I see some people walking on the beach, a man and a woman I think, but I can't make out any specific features. He does seem to have some form of scar tissue or a gigantic piercing near his ear, right behind it, and is always carrying a keyboard or one these fancy new tablets. That is usually where I wake up.
My personal guess is that I spend several hours to many reading crappy novels and that I eat the wrong food before going to bed, but for these things to recur so often, I just don't know...
Anyway, I am still working on recovering some more footage, I also got around for a quick trip to the house from the intro video. I did not dare to go inside though, I felt as if someone was watching me, the powerline was constantly humming, the wind sounded like this choir of whispers, like in a cheesy betond belief dream sequence, and I could have sworn that I saw somethong move in the bushes. That place just has this terryfying atmospehre, even if you bring a friend, you would not really know what to do.
Anyway, stay tuned for more, I could keep on going, but I got stuff to do :)
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
grrr
I can't log on to my youtube account. I have no clue why, but everytime I click on "log in" my computer just freezes and blue-screens. Ah, well. Tomorrow I am going back to university. I was once again unable to reach my friend, apparently he was busy with work and his cellphone does not work.However, he did say we were going to skype a little this weekend, we might be able to talk about all the stuff we did back then.
However, I do worry about him. He has not talked to me much, and seems to be obsessed with this challenge he is doing. I kind of don't want to know what it is, but at the same time, I am getting increasingly worried. I mean, if your freinds parents tell you that he draws strange symbols, has books about Jung, astrophysics and memex in his room, next to a book on how to skin animals, I kind of understand their worries.
I mean, he never acted like this before. Usually he used to be the outgoing one. Yeah sure, both of us could spend an entire day not talking to anyone, but I lived in an almost hermit like state. We became friends trough a happy accident, and have stayed in touch for a long time.
I guess I am just being paranoid. He did give me a few clues, he gave me the name of his supervisor, "case", and said that the trials he was in were almost complete and that his initiation as a terminal could soon begin. So yeah, still worried.
His parents, who picked up the phone first, did tell me that the group was called knights- something.
Oh, well, look at the time, I need to catch some sleep, I have an early train to catch tomorrow.
I will have to work out the youtube issues some other day.
Stay tuned.
However, I do worry about him. He has not talked to me much, and seems to be obsessed with this challenge he is doing. I kind of don't want to know what it is, but at the same time, I am getting increasingly worried. I mean, if your freinds parents tell you that he draws strange symbols, has books about Jung, astrophysics and memex in his room, next to a book on how to skin animals, I kind of understand their worries.
I mean, he never acted like this before. Usually he used to be the outgoing one. Yeah sure, both of us could spend an entire day not talking to anyone, but I lived in an almost hermit like state. We became friends trough a happy accident, and have stayed in touch for a long time.
I guess I am just being paranoid. He did give me a few clues, he gave me the name of his supervisor, "case", and said that the trials he was in were almost complete and that his initiation as a terminal could soon begin. So yeah, still worried.
His parents, who picked up the phone first, did tell me that the group was called knights- something.
Oh, well, look at the time, I need to catch some sleep, I have an early train to catch tomorrow.
I will have to work out the youtube issues some other day.
Stay tuned.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Continued research
So I am once again siting through my computer looking for old video files. I have found a lot of material, but most of it cannot be played by any media player I have access too. I will uppload whatever I can salvage, but the footage that I can view often freezes at one point and just stops playing.
I really don't know what could be causing this. It could be a massive software error, but in all media players? Or are all the files corrupted, but in that case,how? I don't know of anything that could cause these errors. I really have no clue.
Also, I got a strange feeling regarding the jacket. I can identify my own silhouette in the video I think, and I recognise the rest of the clothes and the location, but I cannot remeber having said jacket.
However, recently, I have been trying to communicate with my old friends, the few I ever had. Apparently I really have a massive chunk of missing time, mostly from 2012, but also from 2011 and back. Somehow I have a really bad feeling about this. I completely forgot about this one time a friend of mine drove us out to this old ruin he found next to the highway. We apparently went there in the middle of winter, sometime around Christmas last year, a few days before or after. Or was it around the solstice? He didn't remember everything either. I did not find any footage, so I will try to go to said ruin before I have to go back to university. I study in another city, so I won't have access to this area. I will ask my friend Michael to drive me to the location.
Alright, right now I have the following tasks:
1: Find out why my footage is so strange and why I do not have any memories.(missing time is not good if coupled with weird footeage, if you know what I mean)
2: Figure out where my old black leather bag is and hopefully locate the notebook I had in it.
and,
3:Figure out why there is a brown leather jacket in some of the clips.
Stay tuned for more.
I really don't know what could be causing this. It could be a massive software error, but in all media players? Or are all the files corrupted, but in that case,how? I don't know of anything that could cause these errors. I really have no clue.
Also, I got a strange feeling regarding the jacket. I can identify my own silhouette in the video I think, and I recognise the rest of the clothes and the location, but I cannot remeber having said jacket.
However, recently, I have been trying to communicate with my old friends, the few I ever had. Apparently I really have a massive chunk of missing time, mostly from 2012, but also from 2011 and back. Somehow I have a really bad feeling about this. I completely forgot about this one time a friend of mine drove us out to this old ruin he found next to the highway. We apparently went there in the middle of winter, sometime around Christmas last year, a few days before or after. Or was it around the solstice? He didn't remember everything either. I did not find any footage, so I will try to go to said ruin before I have to go back to university. I study in another city, so I won't have access to this area. I will ask my friend Michael to drive me to the location.
Alright, right now I have the following tasks:
1: Find out why my footage is so strange and why I do not have any memories.(missing time is not good if coupled with weird footeage, if you know what I mean)
2: Figure out where my old black leather bag is and hopefully locate the notebook I had in it.
and,
3:Figure out why there is a brown leather jacket in some of the clips.
Stay tuned for more.
Monday, August 19, 2013
1 step forward :)
Hey!
Listen!
My youtube channel is up. I recycled an old channel I made for the film project. I did not remember I had it, but I got a text from one of my friends that there were some old clips on my channel. They were right. There are two clips on it, the copies on my computer won't play, but these seem mostly fine.
So yeah, stay tuned.
http://www.youtube.com/user/fadingmemories2erase
Listen!
My youtube channel is up. I recycled an old channel I made for the film project. I did not remember I had it, but I got a text from one of my friends that there were some old clips on my channel. They were right. There are two clips on it, the copies on my computer won't play, but these seem mostly fine.
So yeah, stay tuned.
http://www.youtube.com/user/fadingmemories2erase
Saturday, August 17, 2013
gone
Ugh, this probably is not good.
I got sick again. It started about a week ago, and it just got worse and worse. I had a really high fever and kept talking about someone following me and stuff like that. Apparently I was hallucinating for a while as well, kept going on and on about the men in black being after me or something. I feel better now, but I have not heard from my friend for a while. I guess he is busy.
However, I did ind out that he is in involved in some new, strange group. Apparently he is participating in some from of trial they set up, something about code cracking and hacking. I really hope he does not get himself arrested.
Ah, well time to go.
cough, cough, stay tuned, cough cough.
I got sick again. It started about a week ago, and it just got worse and worse. I had a really high fever and kept talking about someone following me and stuff like that. Apparently I was hallucinating for a while as well, kept going on and on about the men in black being after me or something. I feel better now, but I have not heard from my friend for a while. I guess he is busy.
However, I did ind out that he is in involved in some new, strange group. Apparently he is participating in some from of trial they set up, something about code cracking and hacking. I really hope he does not get himself arrested.
Ah, well time to go.
cough, cough, stay tuned, cough cough.
Monday, August 5, 2013
wut
I had another nightmare.
Fuck.
It was bad.
But the good news are the fact that I got a video together, but now I have to put together a channel. More work.
Also I seem to be getting sick again. And my bad dreams are not helping. I am running from something, and I seem to be seeing myself from above, and gets surrounded by trees at some point.
Well, that is weird...
Stay tuned for more.
Fuck.
It was bad.
But the good news are the fact that I got a video together, but now I have to put together a channel. More work.
Also I seem to be getting sick again. And my bad dreams are not helping. I am running from something, and I seem to be seeing myself from above, and gets surrounded by trees at some point.
Well, that is weird...
Stay tuned for more.
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